February 2012
63 posts
there are boys that you like and will never like you. there are boys that love you but you will never love. there are boys who are perfect for you but you aren’t ready for. there are boys who aren’t ready to offer commitment actively when you aren’t ready to ask for it. there are boys who are ready to offer commitment when you aren’t ready to not have to do all the work.
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i can envision myself giving people advice as a future experienced in life person, i know what advice i’d give, i just have to make the mistakes i’m going to tell other people not to make first.
“My only relief is to sleep. When I’m sleeping, I’m not sad, I’m not angry, I’m...”
– Jillian Medoff (via vanityem)
i just finished reading the stranger. somehow i couldn’t bring myself to really like it. the story didn’t stick with me, which is not to say that i didn’t find it intellectually interesting. it’s just that i couldn’t relate. at the end, i didn’t cry. i didn’t care. it was just over.
i guess that’s existentialism for you. oh well.
i am sorry
that i told everyone
the truth
is that
the truth
isn’t that
important
when compared
to how it felt
“… For the first time, in that night alive with signs and stars, I opened...”
– Albert Camus, The Stranger (via liquidnight)
i care more about intelligence than honesty
“May I never remember reasons
for my spirit’s safety
may I never forget
the...”
– Audre Lorde (Solstice)
people are so rude
i lock my bike up at the same spot practically every morning, and today i walk up there at the end of the day, after swimming practice, tired, and with wet hair and my bike is sprawled across the sidewalk. now, not only is this inconvenient for passers-by and myself, my handlebar has also been bent to a degree where my break can no longer close all the way.
okay, so maybe this was an accident,...
“When you don’t have many friends and you don’t have a social life you’re kind of...”
– Tim Burton (via megagoth)
i enjoy my painfully clichéd blog, wait actually having a blog at all is a cliché but whatever.
“I want to do with you what spring does with the cherry trees.”
– Pablo Neruda (via sadseas)
lady macbeth was a cool chick
“‘The book I’m looking for,’ says the blurred figure, who holds out a volume...”
– If on a Winter’s Night a Traveler, Italo Calvino
no, you’re not pro-life, you’re anti-choice. that’s accurate diction.
let’s just be clear here, alcohol is the solution to mild social anxiety, if that wasn’t obvious. the thing is, adults try to scare kids so much that they are really starting to think drinking is crossing over to the dark side. clearly you will not become a death eater because you drink, drinking isn’t that badass (also it doesn’t make you cool). everyone needs to calm down...
“I was always hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to...”
– Haruki Murakami (Norwegian Wood)
memorizing shakespeare
i haven’t done this since the sixth grade, when i swore off shakespeare, but i have to for english, and it’s actually quite cathartic. just me and the words on the page.
“If you want to do something big in your life, you must remember that shyness is...”
– Arfa Karim, Microsoft computer programming prodigy, at 10 years old. (via chaiivee)
valentines day is a nonevent. it is a completely neutral occasion for me, i’m not angry that i’m not in a relationship. though i do want a relationship on one level, mostly i want someone to hold me sometimes. but i want lots of things, and most of them there aren’t scores of adorable movies about to remind me just how nice they would be and how single i am. maybe i’m a...
i think i want to stop watching tv
i didn’t for the first 13 years of my life and i was really fine.
i may have mentioned this before but i kinda need light-up shoes or the ones with wheels
“I usually solve problems by letting them devour me.”
– Franz Kafka (via mirroir)
i was disappointed with my english class’ discussion of gatsby. i was so excited, i was like “oh my god, i just feel exactly like nick all the time!” and everyone else just didn’t feel that way at all and i felt so awkward, actually not very awkward because i’m always like that, but still.
“But I forget that I have a tendency to have latent emotions. They can spring up...”
– Alexi Wasser
You
imprisonedphilosopher:
a winding road
led from your door
and I followed it’s dusty
barren path
towards what I believed
important
never realizing
I was leaving
that which I sought
behind
not caring
care, or just don’t, no? that’s how i’ve gone about things for most of my life with most things, but i am someone whose mood changes day by day, hour by hour. i can say to myself one minute just be happy and start smiling absurdly, then a few minutes later be consumed by melancholy.
much of the unhappiness in my life comes from caring about things that i shouldn’t, for the...
“Walking along the great Prospect of our city, I mentally erase the elements I...”
– If on a Winter’s Night a Traveler, Italo Calvino
